Friday, July 26, 2019

Engaging Emotions

I just finished Untangling Emotions by J. Alasdair Groves and Winston T. Smith.  Thinking about my emotions in the context of my Christian faith is a novel idea to me, and a subject that I started considering a few years ago.  

My emotional nature is from God and therefore a good gift.  But, since I'm a fallen, sinful person, my emotions also reflect that sin nature. 

And there's a real tension that goes on inside of me between the Spirit and my sinful self.  My emotions drive me and can lead me to think and act in ways that aren't consistent with my faith.   
For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.  Romans 7:15
I have three take-aways from the book.

First, emotions are not cut-and-dry; they're complicated.  All of the circumstances in my life, and all that's going on at the moment - those issues impact how I feel and how I respond to any new situation.  And that "tapestry of my life" is ever changing.

Second, my emotions have both positive and negative aspects.  I can be righteously angry at an injustice.  But, mixed in with that "good" anger, I feel hate, and I justify myself and those feelings.  It's complicated.

The book's third and most impactful lesson is the idea of "engaging" my emotions with the Lord.  I should take my feelings and emotions to Him, share them with Him, explore them - explore where my sin is and where it isn't in the current situation and in how I feel.

However, this whole idea of "engaging" emotions is a hard thing to wrap one's head around.  And talking and thinking about it can seem like mixing psychology with Christianity.  

But...as I know and as the book consistently quotes, many of the Psalms, especially David's Psalms, are prayers dealing with emotions.  

David takes his fear, his grief, his guilt, and all his emotions to the Lord in prayer.  
Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am in distress; my eye is wasted from grief; my soul and my body also.  Psalm 31:9
My heart is in anguish within me; the terrors of death have fallen upon me.  Fear and trembling come upon me, and horror overwhelms me.  Psalm 55:4–5
What I've found is - there's relief and comfort in engaging with the Lord.  It's not always easy, as any attempt to expose the sin in my heart is hard and it hurts. 
I acknowledged my sin to you, and I did not cover my iniquity; I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the LORD,” and you forgave the iniquity of my sin.  Psalm 32:5
The gospel is only good news and only shines clearly when placed next to sin and my failure to be perfect, to keep the law.
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Matthew 11:28-29
Untangling Emotions is a good read, and I'll be reading it and referring to it again.  






Friday, July 19, 2019

Reading the Bible as Literature?

My son attends a small, conservative Christian college, and he's taking a summer class called Encountering the Bible.

Almost daily, he expresses his displeasure with how the textbook and the instructor are interpreting God's Word.  

He's complained about teachings such as:
- Heaven and earth existed before God began His work of creation (that God didn't create them).
- Daniel was written around 150BC (not 530BC) because Daniel couldn't possibly have made accurate, historic predictions.
- Luke didn't believe in the atonement.

Also, some students are saying that the course is causing them to doubt the validity of the Bible.

The class appears to be using the historical-critical method of evaluating and analyzing literature.  I call this approach the "text can't mean or be what it claims to be, so let's analyze it" method.   

I'm aware of some of the thoughts related to higher criticism.  However I find these ideas to be subordinate to how the Bible testifies about itself.

It comes down to, "Can we use our human theories and techniques, our own reasoning, to analyze God's Word?"  
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.  For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.  Isaiah 55:8–9
The Lutheran Confessions (The Formula of Concord) puts it this way:
We cannot harmonize God's revelation with our reason, which we have not been commanded to do anyway.
God's Word isn't like any other literature.  In reading it, we have to consider God's character and His intent.

1.  God wants to give us and show us His love and mercy; that's His nature.
But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.  Psalm 86:15
2.  The Bible is all about Jesus; it must be read through that context.
Then he [Jesus] said to them, “These are my words that I spoke to you while I was still with you, that everything written about me in the Law of Moses and the Prophets and the Psalms must be fulfilled.” Then he opened their minds to understand the Scriptures.  Luke 24:44–45
God's Word is powerful.  I struggle with it because it always convicts.
For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. Hebrews 4:12
But His Word also comforts. 
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.  Psalm 34:18
And no matter what we may think about using our own theories, logic, and reason, we don't have it all figured out.  
Every man is stupid and without knowledge.                Jeremiah 51:17a
But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.  1 Corinthians 15:57 





Saturday, July 13, 2019

No Internet?

In July 1980, when I first entered the Naval Academy, I had six weeks of plebe summer, sort of a boot camp on steroids.  I went to classes, had physical activities, and memorized Naval facts and songs.  And I'm pretty sure that '84 was one of the last classes to have a Black Sunday. 

I recently read a list of what the incoming plebe class now experiences for plebe summer, and I saw "No internet for six weeks."

No internet?  Could I do that now?  Starting today? 


I have online banking.  I shop online, make medical appointments, and connect with people for both work issues and social events.  And I especially enjoy the ability to go online and find answers to most any question I have.

But...I also waste a lot of time.  I go online to "find information" and I end up spending an hour just looking around, reading articles.

Lately, my morning prayers have included verses from Psalm 119.  As I've been thinking about "No internet" I read: 
Incline my heart to your testimonies, and not to selfish gain!  Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things.                 Psalm 119:36-37a
Wow..."Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things."

Now the internet isn't worthless.  It's simplified a lot of my daily tasks.  It's given me easy access to needed information, and it's made staying in touch with people effortless.  

But, like any good thing, my sinful nature finds ways to abuse these benefits.  

And I waste time.  I may read useful articles online, but, for the most part, I rarely ingest them or remember them.  It's just information overload, looking for something to amuse my brain, and avoiding doing other work that needs to be done.

This "No internet" idea - I could easily turn it into a legalistic duty and make "restrictions" on my internet use.  Then I'd feel good about myself and brag about my ability to limit my internet use.

I do have a couple of practical ideas that will help move me in the right direction on this.  

But really, it's all about my sinful nature, a nature that seeks my own pleasure and my own wants.  And it's about self-control...or rather, lack of self-control.  

The answer is...repent.  Confess my sin of wasting time and know the forgiveness of the cross, know what Jesus has done for me.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.  1 John 1:9
For I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me.  Against you, you only, have I sinned, and done what is evil in your sight, so that you may be justified in your words and blameless in your judgment.  Psalm 51:3–4
And pray, and continue to pray.
Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words.       Romans 8:26
Lord Jesus,
Thank-you for the internet and for the many benefits it provides.  Forgive me for wasting time every day, in all the ways that I waste time.  Help me not to be anxious, but to pray, to meditate on Your Word, and to love others.
Amen.


Saturday, July 6, 2019

Going Back...

We spent last weekend in Annapolis, Maryland.  The new Naval Academy class of plebes, the class of 2023, had recently arrived and been sworn-in.  For my husband, it was 40 years ago that he became a plebe; for me, 39 years. 

I was surprised at how hot it was walking around the Academy.  It brought back memories of wearing long-sleeved white works with sweat rolling down my back.  I don't know how we managed the heat and humidity; back then, the Academy dorm, Bancroft Hall, wasn't even air conditioned!

I was also surprised to find a stained-glass window in the Rotunda of Bancroft Hall.  It's a picture of Jesus in a boat with his disciples.  I lived there for four years, and I'd never noticed it.

While at the Academy, we made the trek up Stribling Walk, a walk I made many evenings going from the library back to my room.  On Stribling, one can see Bancroft's open front doors, all the way up and into Memorial Hall.  And at night, even from a distance, one can see that flag - "Don't Give Up The Ship."


At the Academy, I had both good days and bad days, and I was often overwhelmed.  But those words, "Don't Give Up The Ship" were always there as an encouragement, as a reminder that the work and the effort were worth it.

And last week, when I saw that flag, I thought the same thing.  The words still apply.  Don't give up.  The work and the effort are worth it. 

But those words are also convicting.  Life is hard, and words given as encouragement can provide tremendous comfort to those in need. 
A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in a setting of silver.  Proverbs 25:11
However, my own tendency is to get caught up in my work, worries, and issues, and to forget that everyone is in need, that everyone needs encouragement, support, truth, and love.
Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.  1 Thessalonians 5:11
Encourage one another.
...because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.  Romans 10:9
Fight the good fight of the faith.  1 Timothy 6:12a
And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.  Galatians 6:9
Encourage one another and keep encouraging one another.
Don't Give Up The Ship.  Captain James Lawrence, 1813